Thing is complicated

She talked to me. I was like so out of expecting.

Luckily, she talked nicely to me.

Thanks god !

She loves him. As much as I do.or maybe, is more than I do.

This is so understanding.

I need someone to talk to. Who ? No one. :'(

Her words, keep repeating in my mind automatically.

Or maybe,I should make a decision, before everything goes wrong.

Though, now, I don't feel like I'm doing anything wrong.

Why does thing has to be so complicated ? I wondered.

Think for me once

Sometimes, I'm really speechless with everything.

It was like, I care so much for everyone and who cares me ?

I saw, I heard, I knew. Again & again.

Who knows that I'm really trying so hard to squeezed everything/everyone into one ?

I was just don't want to miss out any single thing/ anyone.

I tried my best, to accompany everyone.

I tried my best, not to reject any thing about them.

I tried my best, not to missed out anyone.

I tried my best, not to ignore anyone no matter it's intentionally or unintentionally.

I tried my best, to balancing between my friends and boyfie.

In the end, what comes to me ?

So, what is now ?

I care, I still do.

And yet, till now. The thing is still not over.

It's hard, for tears not to dropping after seeing it.

How good could it be, if you guys could stand on my side, and think for me once.